Paul and I were married about four months when we found out that we were expecting. The day we found out, I had just gotten home from work and the grocery store. I was debating on whether or not to take a pregnancy test. But something felt different and I was a day late. So I gave into my curiosity and took a test. I had said a very emotional prayer before taking the test, that just once I wanted to see a positive pregnancy test, but I was willing to wait for His timing. God didn't make me wait very long, three minutes later the test read PREGNANT! I must have looked at it four or five times before calling my best friend Stefanie. I wanted to call Paul so bad, but I wanted him to be with me when I told him. I was in such shock I took three more before he got home. Each one read PREGNANT, PREGNANT, PREGNANT!
Paul called me like he does every day when he leaves work. I was bursting inside, wanting so much to tell him the news. I tried to act as normal as possible. His thirty minute drive seemed like hours. I called him when he was about ten minutes away to see what was taking so long. When he finally arrived I told him to sit down on the sofa and close his eyes. Awkwardly, he sat down next to me with eyes closed. He put out his hand like I asked and I slipped the test in his hand. He opened his eyes looked at the test and then up at me. He gave me a kiss and we hugged. I cried a little and I'm pretty sure he had a few tears in his eyes, which he will not admit of course.
Words from Paul: I have known for a long time that one of Amanda's biggest dreams was to become a mom. I had accepted that and knew that one day I wanted to be a dad too. Due to remarks from some of Amanda's past OB/GYNs, I thought we were going to have to try harder than most couples to have our first little one due to her Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS). I had put it out of my mind at the time - after all, we had just been married approximately four months, Amanda was settling nicely into her full-time job and I was about to graduate with a Master's degree in a couple short months - so we were on our way to becoming a quite successful young couple.
I thought it was odd that Amanda called me multiple times before I could even get home from my internship, but I told myself, "she must just miss me terribly today for some reason." In the last few minutes before pulling into the driveway I heard some country song about being a father...I really think it was "A Love Without End, Amen" by George Straight, but I'm not 100% on that. As I pulled in the driveway I thought about how cool it would be one day when I have my own little guy or girl. As I walked up the front walkway I thought about the song and thought about Amanda's phone calls, and then it hit me. Could Amanda be pregnant? Now? "That's too much of a coincidence," I thought, and I put it out of my mind.
When I got into the house, there she was... gleaming. "What the heck?" I thought. She smiled at me as I put my stuff down, and I just looked around the room confused. She asked me to sit down and I reluctantly did right away. She asked me to close my eyes and before she could put the test in my hands, I knew. The long, slender shape of the pregnancy test in my hand was just the confirmation. I opened my eyes and said something like, "Really?" or "Are you serious?" and of course she was. She was happy, yet tearful...I was just happy...I swear.
We went to Noodles and Company for dinner, we both had smiles on our faces that would not disappear. I begged him to take me to Target to get even more pregnancy tests so that I could take one in the morning, just to be sure. He laughed a little that I even felt the need to take anymore, but he gave in. So at midnight and in the morning before work I took the test, both read PREGNANT! At this point I was convinced.
One of about six pregnancy tests. I wish that I would have taken a cuter picture with the tests, but at this point I was just so thrilled to be pregnant I couldn't think of anything else.
Our first picture of the baby bump. I remember how excited I was to be showing. It seems so small now!
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